When we surrender ourselves to God, this allows the miraculous and supernatural to occur. God changes the old person we used to be, creating us into a new being. This process doesn't happen overnight. This change is an evident, deep, sometimes painful, truth enlightening difference we and others notice. This requires surrendering our own will and being obedient to God. It's a one day at a time process. We are always a work in progress. “And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ.” (Philippians 1:6 ESV)
I have a secret letter I want to share that my therapist encouraged me to write to myself. This letter was written from the “new Brooke” I was becoming; speaking to the “old Brooke” I used to be. I’m sharing this letter so you can see the awesome power of God at work and you will know there is hope for you too. God is always working in His time, in His strength, and He is true to His word. He is our healer, comforter and perfect peace.
The Secret Letter
My Dearest Brooke,
This is a note from the new Brooke, a woman of God. This Brooke is prophetic, strong, close to God, trusts in Him and is growing spiritually. I will call you Old Brooke. Not that you’re old in age, but that you’re the old me from the past. You’re the old me who was holding me back from my dreams, desires and calling.
I know you’re sensitive. I know you and your ways all too well. I ask that you prepare yourself emotionally for what I have to say. It’s time for us to part ways. Please don’t be sad. Please don’t be angry. I know you've been a part of me for all my life. But it’s time for me to grow up and step into a new season; a time of renewal, revival, and into God’s refining fire. It’s time for me to live loving God passionately and unremittingly. I can’t do this when you rule my ways and thoughts. You’re anxious, stressed, fearful, timid, ruled by emotions, and indecisive. You’re the soul part of me led by the world and selfish wants and desires. You can’t be in control anymore. You've made idols and placed them before God.
I speak power, peace, love, and joy, with a fresh new anointing over my new self in the name of Jesus. I pray and ask for Old Brooke to go peacefully. I understand that Old Brooke will come back and visit. Sometimes she will try to stay. But I pray that God will make me courageous and strong in His power and strength to say NO to her. I pray I will not be tempted to go back to the old Brooke for advice, opinions, tactics, forms of speech, or resort to being her again. I am a new creation in Christ Jesus. Where Old Brooke has left there may be emptiness, God I pray that you would immediately cleanse those areas and fill me with your Holy Spirit, providing peace that surpasses all understanding, filling me with your joy and strength.
Old Brooke went through so much pain, abuse and torment. But if that part of my past was nonexistent, I wouldn't be able to minister to others. God can now use all my hurt, trauma, pain, turmoil, rejection and negativity to help people. “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” (Romans 8:28)
Old Brooke lived without trusting God and lacking in faith. She was paranoid, fearful and scared. She lived in survival mode. It’s time to start living in revival mode. (A restored life) I’m tired and done with the old and unnecessary behaviors. I’m ready, willing and excited to say good-bye to the old me. I choose to be obedient, courageous and receptive to the Holy Spirit.
I understand I’m not perfect and I need to stop following my old rules of perfectionism. I’ve been dominated by perfectionism, believing I had to be perfect never making a mistake in order to be approved of, liked or loved. But the truth is no one is perfect except God. It’s time to stop striving to be something I can’t be, and realize it’s human nature to make mistakes and mistakes are an opportunity for humility.
In one word, the secret to becoming a better you is: surrender!
I’m stepping out in faith and believing God for all my needs. I know God is all knowing, all powerful, loving, kind, merciful, forgiving and gracious. I thank God for allowing me to be Old Brooke and using her in my life to bring me to New Brooke. I’m excited for my future and a changed heart.
Dear God, renew my mind and remind me daily that I am a new creation in Christ Jesus and help me to act as such. Please increase the anointing you've placed on my life and use me to do great things for you! I surrender complete control of my life to God. Amen.
“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!”
(2 Corinthians 5:17 ESV)
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Not everyone is born with a sunny disposition. Have you ever heard or even said, "I just want to be happy." What does happy look like anyway? Is happy being out of debt, having perfect health, owning a home, having children, being married, or having a degree? Some may answer, "yes" and others, "no". While there are many things in life creating happiness within us, happiness will eventually fade as life overcomes us and the mundane or trials wear us down. Happiness comes and goes depending on our circumstances. Happiness is measured by our feelings and experiences, we all have a difference in perspective when it comes to what makes us happy.
Let's be honest. We all want to be happy. But how do we find and create more happiness in ourselves and in our lives?
We need to accept ourselves for who we are and the person God made us to be.
We need to stop comparing ourselves to others.
Comparison will quickly deplete our happiness.
When we Learn to love and accept ourselves; contentment creates happiness.
Be thankful for the little things. We can look around and see all our accomplishments and how God has answered our many prayers. We can think on God's goodness and all He's brought us through.
Having a thankful heart creates a happy heart.
There are so MANY more ways we can be happy. Happiness is an achievable goal when we broaden our perspectives and learn to find happiness in the midst of our every day.
Our greatest happiness comes when we allow ourselves to give freely, doing for others in sacrificial ways. Doing good and being good to others will create a contagious happiness. -Happy see, Happy do!
...........Now go get happy!
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After twenty-six years of battling eating disorders, I was on the verge of giving up on help and hope. I’d just eaten fifteen Oreo cookies, a half gallon of chocolate ice cream with whip cream and chocolate syrup; and twelve donut holes. I ran to the bathroom and began making myself vomit. Standing over the toilet I was shaking, feeling guilty, ashamed, and out of control. I literally felt like I wanted to die.
This was a major set-back for me. It had been eight months since my last bulimic episode and I was doing well after intense counseling. I didn’t understand why I kept doing the things I didn’t want to do over and over. I didn’t understand why I couldn’t be normal and enjoy food; eating it like everyone else. This was a deep, dark, and extremely painful moment in my life when I hit absolute rock bottom. In that place, I was sitting on the bathroom floor, mascara streaming down my face, sobbing sounds eluding as I tried to muffle them. Feelings of desperation no one could comfort ran through my being. But in that moment, something hit me in a profound way. I saw something happening to me physically, mentally and spiritually. Knowledge went from my head to my heart and God gave me an epiphany.
-There I was, just God and me. The revelation was; food was my idol. I ran to food for comfort when I needed something to soothe my anxiety, pain, or negative emotions. I trusted food more than God. Food wasn’t the answer to my problems, but it was my drug; my addiction - my quick fix.
It began early in my child-hood when I thought food was my friend. Food helped me feel better, or maybe just different. It took me to a temporary place which made everything bad; vanish. (But just for awhile) I felt happy when I caught a delightful whiff of freshly baked, chocolate chip cookies. At first, I just wanted a bite. -Something sweet to satisfy. One bite, two, and three weren’t enough. I needed MORE. I tried to stop but went back. I shoved cookies into my mouth, quickly chewing, while a sugar rush caused a surge in my body feeling like a drug pushed into my veins. The gratification was immediate. My hands were shaking and I felt euphoria.
Ironically, no matter how much I ate; it was never enough. No matter what sweets promised; they always disappointed. Like a fool, I kept going back for the pleasure. Infatuated, I was clinging onto foolish reasoning to experience impractical passion. I was sucked in, stuck, and headfirst in an abusive relationship with food.
To be transparent, there existed a time when I believed sweets were better than sex. It’s a silly thought but let me explain. - Food and I had an intimate relationship. I never let any other positive or sensual emotions over-ride. With food, I was safe. Cookies, candy, cake, ice-cream and sugar provided everything I needed without asking for anything in return. I didn’t have to do anything to deserve it either. It was all mine whenever I needed it. And I add emphasis on needed it. Most of the time, I didn’t just want it. I needed it to make me feel better or good. I needed it to calm me down, numb my negative feelings and keep me from dealing with situations. If I were indulging in excessive amounts of sweets, nothing else mattered. I blocked out the world and feasted. It created escapism. Sweets kept me from having to feel what I was really experiencing inside. My feelings were too much for me to handle and explore. They controlled and overwhelmed me.
The problem with eating disorders is this; most of us know we have a problem. But we don’t know why or how to fix it. And even if we do have answers, an addiction is always hard to accept and over-come. Sometimes we can reveal our feelings and actions; talking about our pain. We can’t however; defeat this monster named “ED”, (Eating Disorder) alone!
Regardless of the good times I had with food, when I overate or binged and purged it created negative emotions and bad feelings inside me. Some were guilt, shame, worry, anxiety and fear. Since I refused to live with those feelings, I had to do something to make them go away. There were two options for me: purging in the toilet or excessive exercising. After I purged I felt horrible; I was left emotionally exhausted and suffered a sore throat, a red and puffy face, along with stomach pains. When I over-exercised for two hours or more on the treadmill, I was physically and mentally exhausted. One wrong thought led to consecutive wrong thoughts and irrational actions.
All this hindered me in my walk and closeness with God. Guilt was a constant foe. When I felt guilty it was difficult for me to want to spend time with a perfect, forgiving and loving God. It’s hard to accept grace when we don’t feel like we deserve it. But that’s just it, “For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith--and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God--not by works, so that no one can boast.”
(Ephesians 2: 8-9) God’s grace and mercy is a free gift we choose to receive.
I’m learning to change my position in life from kneeling over the toilet, to kneeling in prayer. –
I need God a whole lot more than I need to binge and purge.
This is where the journey of healing begins.
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We are all a work in progress; and hope does exists!
When we meet someone for the first time, it takes our brains seven seconds to compute a “first impression.” In this short time, we form an opinion based on their appearance, body language, demeanor, mannerisms, and even how they dress. These first impressions are nearly impossible to un-do.
While this may be scientifically proven, the truth is; our first impressions often end up wrong. Our eyes can’t see deep inside a person’s heart, and our minds can’t read their thoughts.
We don’t know the trials and challenges they have faced and over-come. Within each person, there’s a story waiting to be unleashed. Life consists of struggles, pain, trials, good and bad, failures and accomplishments.
Some people are inspired to openly share their lives; but others feel embarrassed, ashamed, misunderstood and vulnerable.
Our first impressions aren't truth but only a perception. No one enjoys rejection or disrespect because of misconceived ideas or opinions. If we want people to be real with us, we have to stop judging. If we want people to be honest, we have to start believing in them. If we want intimate relationships, we have to break down walls by opening our hearts. We can love sacrificially by giving our time to listen to someone. This shows our support and that we care enough to make a positive impact. We are called to freely give mercy, grace, and understanding. We are the hands, feet, mouth piece and heart of Jesus. Every day we wear a spiritual name tag that reads, "Representative of Christ"; meaning we are to represent Christ with integrity, honesty and non-judgmental love.
"We are therefore Christ's ambassadors, as though God were making his appeal through us. We implore you on Christ's behalf: Be reconciled to God." (2 Corinthians 5:20)
From this day forth let us reconsider our “First Impressions”, and allow our hearts to receive “God’s Impression.” This is a choice we make by opening our hearts and minds to see people the way God does. May our hearts be full of love and understanding showing compassion; our mouths speaking words of encouragement, kindness and truth; and our hands and feet going where we can serve and reach others. May we glorify God and shine brightly as a Representative of Christ in all we do and say.
“A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another: just as I have loved you, you also are to love one another.” (John 13:34)
From my heart to yours I share this true and honest confession. I’m an imperfect person living for and chasing after a perfect God. I desire and crave holiness, purity and righteousness; but most times I land flat on my face and fail miserably at the tasks I’ve been given. Please know that "I have not yet arrived but I press forward to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me." (Philippians 3:12)
I’m in awe that I can have constant communication and relationship with my Creator. My God who gave me life and breath; how enthralling this is. Unfortunately, life holds many distractions throughout the day consuming me with busyness and I often forget the miraculous benefit of relationship and prayer with God. I end up trying to accomplish life on my own, leaning on my own thoughts and understanding; becoming stressed out and making bad choices or having a bad day.
By the end of the day, I realize I hadn’t connected with God and sought His ways and wisdom in all things. Feeling burnt out and lonely, I run back to God in fear and guilt because I strayed. However, there is good news; I’ve discovered God loves me anyway. He welcomes me with open arms and He is always ready and willing to listen and help me. This is how loving, patient, gracious and understanding God is. This kind of love is hard to accept and fathom because it’s unconditional. I can’t earn God’s love and approval; God is love and His love never fails.
I understand more than ever that when I attempt life on my own; I lose my peace and strength. “But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.” (2 Corinthians 12:9)
I’m ready for a new season in my life. I want to see and feel the winds of change; experiencing God's supernatural blessings, power and witnessing answers to my prayers. I’m ready to know and understand truth; walking through what’s necessary to experience and have all God has planned, so I may walk in my calling living closer to Jesus like never before.
I’m on a new mission. A journey to discover better the One that created me. To know the One who holds me in the palm of His hand; who holds the Universe in His hands. I want to know His character, nature and heart more. I want to know that even after time in the desert; God brings a refreshing to my spirit and rest to my soul. "I want to know Christ and experience the mighty power that raised him from the dead.” (Philippians 3:10)
The awesome truth is this: No matter how far I’ve strayed, what I’ve done or how guilty I feel; "The Cross is enough". I have a Savior who loves me more than I can comprehend, a King who calls me his daughter, a Father who will never fail or leave me! Oh what an amazing God!
"No power in the sky above or in the earth below--indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord." (Romans 8:39)
When we aren't hungry or thirsty and someone offers us something to eat or drink, we respectfully refuse. This physical act can be compared spiritually. If we are not hungry or thirsty for God or the things of God; we don’t want them and we refuse them. To increase our desire, we have the privilege of praying for a deeper hunger and thirst for God.
God wants us to enjoy our lives but He will have no other god’s before Himself. “You shall have no other gods before me. “You shall not make for yourself a carved image, or any likeness of anything that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth.” (Exodus 20:3-4) If we are not careful, anything we exalt over God may be pulled out from under us; this includes people, things or activities. God is a jealous God. “You must worship no other gods, for the LORD, whose very name is Jealous, is a God who is jealous about his relationship with you.” (Exodus 34:14)
When we live our lives hungry and thirsty for the things of God, we will crave them. We will go after them and only God can satisfy those deep desires inside us. We will mature and receive revelation, wisdom and spiritual knowledge. Things that seemed of utmost importance will decrease and our passion for God will increase. Our passion and desire to show compassion and win others over for Christ will intensify. Meaning and purpose will reveal itself and we will be given power and wisdom from the Holy Spirit. We will walk in life with more than we could ever ask for and we will see, hear and know things with our spiritual senses and not just our physical being. “Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.” (Ephesians 3:20)
I am praying and asking God to help me deeply and greatly desire for more of Him in my life. This life is full of so much that is temporal and will pass us by. But more importantly is the eternal aspects of every living soul on earth. This is not small or tedious but of Great concern for God. This is “The Great Commission”. God wants to use us to reach lost and weary hearts for the sake of Christ.
We are each a vessel God lives in and works through. He gives us power, ability and all we need to help reach others with His love and word. Let’s walk closer with God daily and watch how he makes us more successful in living for Him, doing His works.
Dive in and be refreshed by His living water! Dive in and be ever filled and fulfilled by His word which is the “Bread of Life”. Amen!
John 6:35 " Jesus replied, "I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never be hungry again. Whoever believes in me will never be thirsty."
It’s hard to create peace and harmony. Too many people are living uptight, unreasonable, and unrealistic lives. This causes depression, anger issues, mood swings, and negative emotions. This results in defending yourself from daily arrows of road rage, nasty attitudes, rude comments, and stern looks suggesting intent to harm. People want their way, their say, and you can’t make them change their minds. You can’t make them believe truth or see their irrationalness if they don’t want to. This and more makes the world a messy place. Truth is, you can’t change or control people. (I’ve tried) So, stop wasting your time.
Is the world all bad, or a place of total mayhem? No. However, there is a real and visible decline in truth, justice, and a genuine personable humanity. Where is the hope?
The hope is in our God who works in our hearts, changing us into his likeness one day at a time. The hope is in believing and trusting God to accomplish His word, “And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.” (Romans 8:28) The hope is not in us or other people, it’s in God. We must place our hope and faith in the correct person.
What’s the world’s problem anyway? Well, some of the problem is us! Wrong and negative thinking flows to our hearts, pours out of our mouths, dictates our actions, turning us into live wires. What can we do? We are responsible to be the hands and heart of Jesus to the world.
Here are three ways to be a "World Changer". These don’t come easy or instantly.
It takes prayer, a willing and obedient heart, and God’s supernatural power.
1. Live with a positive attitude refusing to allow your circumstances alone dictate your mood. Happy is a choice. “The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and he helps me. My heart leaps for joy, and with my song I praise him.” (Psalm 28:7)
2. Uphold to “holy” character. Don’t say this is unreachable or you can’t do it. God gives us all we need to live life as he instructs. We have to choose to do it. “For the Scriptures say, "You must be holy because I am holy." (1 Peter 1:16)
3. Live a life of integrity. “But let your ‘Yes’ be ‘Yes,’ and your ‘No,’ ‘No.’ For whatever is more than these is from the evil one.” Matthew 5:37
Who are you influencing today? How are you helping to make the world a better place?
In Christ Jesus; you have what it takes to change the World!
As a child, I wasn’t living a typical life. Rejection, mistreatment, emotional and physical pain were all parts of my every day. I was the innocent and vulnerable scapegoat who was taunted and bullied. Unloved and rejected by my own parents, my heart was full of sadness and I lived in a sea of constant lies. But God rescued me from the depths of hell and I know His love for me.
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