Since child-hood I lived with a fast heart rate called SVT, (Supraventricular Tachycardia). SVT is exacerbated by stress, caffeine, and running. It’s unpredictable and can interfere with normal life. Besides a fast heart rate, you may experience sweating, shaking, shortness of breath, and strong painful palpitations or fainting.
As an adult, this condition became consistent and landed me in a cardiologist’s office.
The cardiologist ran tests and decided to perform a cardiac ablation. I was told there was a 90% chance the problem would be found and fixed. They expected to find a benign, extra electrical pathway to my heart, and destroy it by burning, (ablation). I agreed to the procedure, suffering with extreme anxiety and stress, although they assured me it was very safe.
On surgery day, my husband drove me to the hospital and stayed close by my side. I cried nervous tears and trembled with fear as I lay on the hospital stretcher. My prayers were more than a mere cry for “help”. I was envisioning my death on the operating table. The nurses prepared me with one of those silly hats on my head; I kissed my husband good bye and they wheeled me away through the automatic double doors.
In the operating room were various medical professionals and some serious looking equipment. My fear was greatly increased when they connected me to numerous monitors and machines. I had lines, electrodes, and computers attached. I shook with great fear while they placed cardiac resuscitation pads on me; two on my chest and two on my back. I asked the man why he was putting those on me and his response was, “in case we need to resuscitate you.” I wanted to get up and run fast and far. But before I knew much more my body was too heavy to move and my words were incomprehensible.
The burning pain in my groin was ridiculous. A pinch and a burn sensation was not an adequate definition the doctor gave me. The deep prodding of large bore needles and catheters were painful and forceful. My heart raced quickly and pounded in my chest. I wanted it all to stop; but there were seven of them against me. I yelled out letting them know I was feeling everything. I heard them talking about me but my head was foggy and I wasn't able to make out the conversation. Glancing over, I saw a new set of eyes peering down. I asked, “Who are you?” Not sure if my words really came out but he did answer me. The man said he was called in to make me more comfortable. Thankfully, those were the last words I remember.
After an extensive recovery time, the doctor explained they found nothing wrong. She revealed that sometimes they can’t find the extra pathway. The doctor assured me that even with technology, they don’t always have all the answers. This news was devastating. What a waste of time, energy, money, and I felt like a failure.
I wanted my condition fixed.
I needed to be happy and grateful my heart was healthy, but I felt foolish and angry.
I thought people would think I was crazy and making up my symptoms.
During my recovery at home, I gained amazing revelation in prayer:
God is in control and see’s the bigger picture. I need to rely on Him instead of my own ways. I finally allowed God’s truth and love to penetrate my heart in those circumstances. Instead of thinking I was a failure, I became thankful for God’s healing and His hand upon me. Instead of questioning God and telling him I don’t understand, I started to say; “God I trust you”.
Sometimes we don’t have or know all the answers. What matters is we do know the One who does.
God wants us to trust Him and know He is in control no matter what the situation.
Since then, I've been healthy without heart issues and never again had an episode of SVT.
One day at a time, I am learning to trust God with all my heart.
Will you give everything over to God with me today as we learn to trust and depend on Him in all things;
no matter what our eyes behold?
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding.
Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take." (Proverbs 3:5-6)
"Sometimes we don’t have or know all the answers.
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